Everyone keeps asking if I’m excited.
I leave in just a few weeks. I should be excited. Instead, I’m scared that I’ve created an expectation of studying abroad that reality will never live up to. I’m afraid that instead of some wonderful experience traveling Europe, I’ll spend the majority of my time sitting in my apartment alone, questioning why I left behind my family and friends. I wanted to push my comfort zone, but now I’m wondering if I’ll just break down.
But whenever they ask, I answer “yes” and just nod my head and smile when they go on about all the fun I’m sure to have. I hope they’re right.